Do I Have a Hidden Agenda?

UN : Well, yes and no.
The Buddhas : Please clarify.
UN : I don’t have a hidden agenda in the way you might be thinking.
The Buddhas : But…
UN : I probably do have a hidden agenda in another indirect way.
The Buddhas : Continue.
UN : I am understanding that chanting for others gives greatest joy, during and after.
The Buddhas : So, now you’ve started churning out 100% for others sessions because…
UN : I’m doing it for the joy, but I’m not only doing it for the joy.
The Buddhas : Aha!
UN : No Aha. My intensity when I chant towards my personal issues is so immense…
The Buddhas : …that it borders on anger and asking for something negative, you fear?
UN : I don’t even want to take that chance.
The Buddhas : So you’ve stopped chanting for yourself?
UN : Perhaps just currently. Two issues are angering me. I don’t wish to dwell on the anger.
The Buddhas : Just chant without the anger part.
UN : Yes, currently I’m succeeding at that when I chant for others.
The Buddhas : And when you chant for yourself, the pent up anger wells up?
UN : Yes.
The Buddhas : So you chant for others to avoid anger welling up when chanting for yourself?
UN : Partly. Partly for the joy too.
The Buddhas : Hmmm. We’d like you to soon enough…
UN : …be able to chant for myself too without anger being able to well up?
The Buddhas : Yes. Can you work on that?
UN : Of course.
The Buddhas : Cheers.

What is my Test here?

UN : I’ve been cheated. Monetary and emotionally.
The Buddhas : Yet, you have everything else going for yourself.
UN : Yes. Health, family, profession, all round comfort and joy.
The Buddhas : Except this one thing that’s happening to you.
UN : Yes. Everything else is 5-stars plus plus.
The Buddhas : So what do you think your test is, here?
UN : Looking beyond and enjoying what I have?
The Buddhas : Saying is one thing, doing is another.
UN : That one pinch spoils the taste.
The Buddhas : Your practice will bleach the effects of the pinch.
UN : After a chanting session, I don’t remember the pinch, till eventually reminded.
The Buddhas : Ask for capacity to look beyond this incident, while chanting. Soon, you’ll forget the pinch altogether.

So, What did You Notice?

The Buddhas : So, what did you notice?

UN : That after a chanting session, some kind of a joy starts to rise.

The Buddhas : And…

UN : It seems that the cells of the body are celebrating.

The Buddhas : Is it?

UN : Yes, and there are vibratory sounds in the head.

The Buddhas : Hmmm.

UN : There is extra force emanating from the forehead.

The Buddhas : What is your overall feeling?

UN : My problem has diminished.

The Buddhas : Smaller in size?

UN : Am thinking less about it. Am busy enjoying the good feeling in the body and mind.

The Buddhas : Lessened in threat value, then?

UN : I’m not scared to face it. The Karma has started to come to the fore, at accelerated speed, and my energy levels to tackle it have shot up. Issue is bothering me lesser and lesser as I keep chanting. 

The Buddhas : Not that you spend much time chanting towards resolution of your this issue…

UN : Others have bigger issues. Joy levels emanating later are higher when I chant for them.

The Buddhas : You noticed that, did you?

UN : Yes. I enjoy chanting for loved ones.

The Buddhas : Be a little careful about wattage please. 

UN : Wattage?

The Buddhas : Chant a wattage that the loved one is able to sustain.

UN : I see. I thing I understand what you are saying. 

The Buddhas : Good. Bye.
 

Did You Ask for Something Negative?

UN : Good session, huh?!

The Buddhas : There were good things about it.
 
UN : Let’s hear it from you. What was good about it?

The Buddhas : First the difficult part.

UN : The seven minutes I chanted for myself, yes, those were very intense, I gave it everything.

The Buddhas : There was so much energy being thrown into the Universe in those seven minutes. Was there negativity?

UN : I’ve been emotionally and monetarily massively cheated. All I asked was for the Karma to resolve with maximum ease and evolution.

The Buddhas : You didn’t ask for the offending parties to be punished, agreed, but your tone was so thunderous and intense, that we were wondering. 

UN : I feel about it emotionally and thunderously. Resolution with maximum ease and evolution are words that have come from you, in one of the recent logs.

The Buddhas : No negativity – that’s good, fine, let’s move on. We liked that almost 85-90% of the session was spent chanting for others. 

UN : I didn’t do it to please you.

The Buddhas : Tell us why you didn’t chant more for yourself, especially because you have been emotionally and monetarily cheated.

UN : It felt great chanting for others. I felt on top of the world. I felt I was moving and shaking the world. I forgot my own problems.

The Buddhas : And then you remembered them?

UN : When I did, I went in with a bang. I felt I had obtained a visa to chant for myself, after chanting for others for the majority of the session.

The Buddhas : The visa bit is a little ridiculous, such that we don’t know whether to laugh or to cry. 

UN : I know, chanting for others doesn’t give one a visa for anything. 

The Buddhas : However, you forgot about your own problems, at least for a while. Simultaneously, you remembered the problems of others.

UN : So?

The Buddhas : That stands out for us. We need to see more efforts like that. Alone that excuses any minor discrepancies we might have had with your session. 



 

Dealing with no Seat

I don’t have a fixed seat for chanting.
 
I can create it with force, but don’t wish to. 
 
I want the seat to come naturally, whenever it does, in unison with the happiness of my immediate family.
 
Till the seat comes, a virtual one can be created almost anywhere.
 
So, iPad out, link open http://youtu.be/LYC15nHTAL4 , I do Gongyo along with. Simple?
 
After that, I can chant. Slow, fast, suit yourself. I use this one for rhythm https://youtu.be/rVr9BzGijPU , it wakes me up, gets me going, and once the rhythm has developed, I can continue on my own. The Gongyo in this one is a tad too fast, but you can actually feel the horse galloping. I love the rhythm of the Daimoku in this one. 
 
At times, I remember the image of the Gohonzon in my mind. Once the image is there, a mental conversation with the Gohonzon develops. 
 
Sometimes I forget to thank the universe and the founding fathers for giving me this opportunity. 
 
However, I carry my virtual seat, with me, wherever I go, with dignity, and with gratitude.

When There’s a Prick, I Start to Chant

The Buddhas : There you are again.
UN : You got me there. I’m in pain. Thus my chanting intensifies.
The Buddhas : And you don’t chant as intensely when not in pain. 
UN : Yes. You got me there.
The Buddhas : Why exactly not? We want to know.
UN : When I’m in physical or mental pain, I wish to return to my normal asap. 
The Buddhas : Then you don’t hold back, is it? Why do you hold back when normal?
UN : When normal, I don’t wish to overdo. But I still do.
The Buddhas : Hmmm. Your chanting when in pain is 6 times in comparison. 
UN : You wish me to increase my chanting while normal?
The Buddhas : We’re just noting the discrepancy in the ratio. 
UN : Normal chanting brings Karma to the fore, to be dealt with. 
The Buddhas : And the happy Karma you take as if its your birthright…
UN : And the painful Karma makes me crib… and then go beserk chanting. 
The Buddhas : This going beserk and the cribbing part needs to be altered. 
UN : Meaning?
The Buddhas : Don’t waste time cribbing. 
UN : Fine. Then?
The Buddhas : Go straight to Gongyo and Daimoku. Lay out your issue. Then chant.
UN : I then get extra vigorous. I’m greedy for quick resolution. 
The Buddhas : Vigorous to the extent to falling ill is a fault. Greed and haste are faults too. 
UN : So I’ll chant with attenuation, without thinking of resolution?
The Buddhas : Chant for the Karma to play out with maximum ease and evolution. 
UN : And them move on with the additional strength coming from the evolution?
The Buddhas : Yes. Move on to bigger game. 
 

The Exercise of the White Light

Chanting magnetises each cell of the body.

It is not a wonder, that the chant remains with one, wherever one goes. It goes on in the background.

We lay down to rest. Eyes are closed.

Chant is going on in the background.

What now?

Let it go on?

Alternatively, you could do the exercise of the light.

Imagine a pitch dark cave.

You are in the cave.

The entrance is completely blocked by a boulder.

The boulder has a crack, though, through which white light is coming in.

White?

Whiter than white.

Fairy’s-dress-white.

As white as it gets.

And then whiter.

Imagine the crack getting bigger.

More white light comes in.

White light engulfs you.

You are in the white light.

The white light is in you.

Remain in the white light.

Guide it to your aches and pains.

Fall asleep in the white light.

You will be amazed at how fast your body recuperates and then some.

What have you achieved?

Two things.

You now have something extremely constructive to do between the time that eyes are closed and the time that you fall asleep.

Also, you are simultaneously then not chanting with eyes closed.

Why is Daimoku happening to me?

Good things are assets, so why do I even need to ask such a question? 

I was just wondering… 

I was spreading goodness before it happened. 

It was a quiet meaningful life. 

There were gaps to reflect. Recreation was ample. 

I was content. 

Then I fell sick. 

I wrote to one of the charities I patronize about my illness :


Dear Friends @ OGQ,

Congratulations on your successes. You are on the right path, and have crossed the baby-steps stage. Now, as favourable results start trickling in, it’s time to buckle up and ride to the maximum. Well done!

Today, I’d like to share with you, that I’m hale and hearty, and fully recovered from a lung surgery in late January. 

My illness came in a flash, out of the blue. It turned our lives upside down, and was a harrowing time for the entire family. One moment, I was fine, and in the next, I was in deep trouble. 

An exceptionally violent single bout of very quick and convulsive vomiting led to a tear in my food pipe, through which food and liquid leaked into a lung. By the grace of God, the other lung was mostly intact. I was hospitalised under great pain, and found it very difficult to breathe, because each breath was very painful. 

Though the hospital was able to stabilise me, they could not diagnose the condition for five days, and the lung was kind of diminishing in size as per the X-ray. I was then transferred to Sir Ganga Ram Hospital, where I was immediately correctly diagnosed, and underwent thoracic robotic surgery, which is relatively minimally invasive. 

The stroke of luck was that in Sir Ganga Ram hospital, they had the technology for this kind of surgery. The other option would have been a huge cut, cutting through the rib-cage, and manual cleaning of the lung with gloved hands and water. Recovery from such a surgery would have taken over 3 months, and might not have been a full one. As part of the aftermath of the  thoracic robotic surgery performed, I was put on the treadmill 8 hours after returning from the operation theatre, so that the contracting lung would start to expand. 

It was quite a sight and experience. Here I was, with four pipes coming out of my body, 2 machines connected, 3 biggish to big wounds on my upper body, in pain, hungry and thirsty (because nothing was allowed through the mouth), doing treadmill 4 times a day, half an hour each time! They made it very clear, that if I wanted a full recovery, this was the only way. I squeezed out every drop of energy and will-power left in my system, and puffing and panting and moaning and groaning, I went through the regimen. To lessen the pain, there was an epidural in my back, and I was supposed to push a button in my hand, which would inject painkiller into my spine. This continued for five days. Then they removed the epidural. Pain had stabilized, and was controllable though pills. Treadmill regimen continued, and I was being made to climb seven floors of stairs seven times a day in addition. Still no food and water, only nutrition through food-pipe going straight to the small intestine, drop by drop, five times a day, for 4 weeks. Lost 15 kilos.  

Meanwhile, let me narrate more about my good fortune in this whole thing. Dr. Arvind Kumar was leading the team of surgeons. He is the best man in India for thoracic robotic surgery, and he was available at the hospital I was in. He was not travelling. He created space for me in the operation theatre. I responded to the minimal sized tubes, and they did not need to scale the surgery up. Upon onset of high fever after the surgery, they were fearing return of infection and did everything in their power to make the lung expand instead of contract. When fever was not coming down, they resorted to boxing the operation site for half an hour on two occasions, so as to throw secretions out of the lung through force. This worked, and fever came down. Was excruciatingly painful, though. Nevertheless, I’ll take it! Once fever come down, recovery set in. 

Upon discharge, I looked like a prisoner from a concentration camp. Slowly, all pipes and machines were removed. External food pipe was removed too, and I was started on small quantities of liquids for 2 weeks. Then I was allowed soft food for another 2 weeks. Currently, I am allowed to eat everything, as long as it is not edgy and very hard. 

I do reflect upon my good fortune of getting saved without any lingering ailment or negative effect of surgery. Worst-case scenarios didn’t happen. I’m whole again. Why was I granted the good fortune? Many people prayed for me, some extensively. A few undertook pilgrimages. Why for me?

Then it dawned upon me. It’s because of my charity work. Charity makes one a pivot point in the lives of others. Take away the pivot, and many lives are affected, not just the pivot. Nature thinks very, very hard before taking away any pivots, or even before allowing pivots to diminish in energy. Nature wants its pivots to grow and glow. 

As OGQ members, you are pivots in the lives of your athletes. You are also pivotal for your country. You are doing a great thing. Now do it with 200% more conviction, after having read the above narration. 

Best regards and sincerely,

Uday.


I left out in this story that chanting by Vasant, Mandira and whoever they shared this with actually lifted me out of my predicament at all crucial points, when things could have gone the other way. I do believe this is true. 

I reasoned with myself. There was gratitude. I decided to give it a try. Leaders started appearing, three actively, fourth ready to act. I started to chant. Gongyo through YouTube. Life got busier. Gaps got filled. No time left to ruminate. Only time to act. I act with full fervour. 

I was a small beacon earlier. 

Through whatever little chanting that has taken place, I’ve become a slightly larger beacon today. 

That’s probably why! 
 

Why Aren’t You Asking?

The Buddhas : Why aren’t you asking?

UN : I’m satisfied. One doesn’t always need to ask while chanting.

The Buddhas : You used to ask. You asked for another child. You asked for friendship with another person. Those were intense prayers. What’s happened to them? Why aren’t they coming now?

UN : That was some time ago.

The Buddhas : But you asked for many, many years. It was felt. 

UN : It’s ok. Not every prayer needs to be answered. 

The Buddhas : But now you have the tool. Ask while you chant.

UN : I’m not sure I want those things anymore.

The Buddhas : Why?

UN : By having either of the 2 wishes in question granted, I do realise now that I’ll be disturbing the harmony of my immediate family. Anyway, the tears have dried up now. I’m probably beyond the longing. 

The Buddhas : But what if one of us wants to come?

UN : Go to a family where every family member wants you, not just one.

The Buddhas : There are few vibratory matches. You need to help us out here for the greater good. 

UN : I’ll need to convince the other family members. That’s almost impossible. 

The Buddhas : Try.

UN : Ok.
 
The Buddhas : What about your friendship? You don’t want it?

UN : Do you see any way of giving me that friendship without disturbing my family’s harmony?

The Buddhas : It’s a tough one. However, you have to want it first, before we think about giving it.

UN : What’s so important about this friendship?

The Buddhas : She’s connected to one of our leaders. If you’re connected to her, the triangle becomes very strong indeed. Anyone inside the triangle will start to transform. 

UN : You know what, you figure this one out. It’s beyond me. 

The Buddhas : Ok. 

The Thing about the Eyes

Closing one’s eyes comes naturally, especially while chanting a mantra.
 
However, one needs to watch out against this natural reflex while chanting NamMyoHoRengeKyo. 
 
NamMyoHoRengeKyo (NMHRK) seems to be about connection and spreading outwards, such being the need of the hour. 
 
Closing one’s eyes while chanting NMHRK causes vibration to accumulate in the area of the main chakra between the eyebrows. 
 
In most of us, living in today’s day and age, this main chakra is closed or party open only, due to our lifestyles, myself included.  
 
In very few is this chakra fully open, due to the maintenance of a healthy and spiritual lifestyle. 
 
Closing one’s eyes for longish periods while chanting NMHRK with a closed or only partially open main chakra between the eyebrows can cause harm to this chakra. 
 
In extreme cases, where NMHRK is chanted vigorously for long periods with closed eyes, this chakra could even explode. 
 
Harm to the main chakra between the eyebrows affects all chakras in the body, since the main chakra has a controlling effect on all of these. 
 
Ill-functioning chakras lead to ill-health and abnormal development in the body.
 
Thus it makes complete sense to chant NMHRK with eyes open.