Feeling Like a Fool

UN : I mostly circulate in circles where my line of work has little or no value.

The Buddhas : Why do you think that is so?

UN : To motivate my circle?

The Buddhas : Describe your circle.

UN : Well-off, successful, recognised, powerful, connected, people with lots of good Karma accumulated in the past, using it up at a ridiculously fast speed. 

The Buddhas : So your presence would be to remind them…

UN : …to stop depleting their savings so fast, and to start accumulating new good Karma?

The Buddhas : Yes. And your test would be to…

UN : …not feel looked down upon, lowly, unsuccessful, unrecognised, worthless etc. because of these people?

The Buddhas : Yes, because you have enough…

UN : …confidence and belief in what I’m doing?

The Buddhas : Correct. Just because you are almost always functioning out of your comfort-zone, doesn’t mean that you are what a few people in your circle might think you are. 

UN : How come I’m not allowed entry into my comfort zone?

The Buddhas : All in good time. However, we want to get rid of an illusion.

UN : Which would be what?

The Buddhas : You’re doing more good outside of your comfort-zone that you will be once you enter it. 

UN : What’s the illusion?

The Buddhas : The feeling in your mind that you’ll peak upon entry into your comfort-zone.

UN : So I’ll peak outside?

The Buddhas : You are well on your way, and your growth will peak while still outside. 

UN : And once inside?

The Buddhas : One tends to get comfortable once inside one’s comfort-zone.
 
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Evolution Diaries

The Buddhas : Why do you doubt?
 
UN : Sometimes, the path gets monotonous.
 
The Buddhas : Keep doing what you are doing. You are on the right track.
 
UN : Most of the times I do just that. Only sometimes there are pangs…
 
The Buddhas : For success, recognition and fame?
 
UN : I don’t want to use the word fame, and I am successful at what I do. I don’t want the recognition, but maybe once a month, I do want some recognition. However, the feeling passes, and I move on.
 
The Buddhas : You’ve already signed up for recognition here.
 
UN : Signed up? Here? Don’t understand.
 
The Buddhas : Your activities till date have given you recognition in our dimension.
 
UN : Which doesn’t necessarily mean recognition in my dimension, right?
 
The Buddhas : In your dimension, it means struggle. Recognition might or might not come, depending upon your tendency towards getting corrupted.
 
UN : And what makes you think I’ve signed up for this?
 
The Buddhas : Do other corresponding activities and we’ll sign you out of here.
 
UN : So you’re saying, that the nature of what I do makes you take notice of me?
 
The Buddhas : UhhhYeah!
 
UN : And you’re saying I can opt for worldly recognition anytime by choosing to do other such activities which beget worldly recognition, right?
 
The Buddhas : Yeah, who’s stopping you…except you yourself? You want to do spiritual and charitable deeds.
 
UN : Ok forget about the recognition part, I just need conducive company, sometimes.
 
The Buddhas : Then you won’t struggle.
 
UN : You’re happy that I struggle, is it?
 
The Buddhas : No, we’re happy that your speed of evolution is fast.
 
UN : Can one evolve without struggling?
 
The Buddhas : For one’s system to change enough for evolution, DNA needs to change.
 
UN : And DNA’s not going to change without the required pressure, correct?
 
The Buddhas : Correct.
 
UN : What about the ones revelling in their fame, glory and recognition currently?
 
The Buddhas : Why are you so bothered about them? That’s their test.
 
UN : The test being to see whether they’ll get corrupted?
 
The Buddhas : For example. One basically wants to see whether they’ll do any good, being in a position of power.
 
UN : And since I’m already doing good, what do I want a position of power for, right?
 
The Buddhas : Hahahahaha, kind of…, you said it, we didn’t!
 
UN: Right, bye.





Status Check

UN : This isn’t complacency, no no.

The Buddhas : Well, then what is it?

UN : You tell me. You should know.

The Buddhas : Hmmm, let’s gather the facts.

UN : Let’s.

The Buddhas : You start out early.

UN : Yeps.

The Buddhas : Read spiritual literature over 25+ years.

UN : Yeah.

The Buddhas : Do various spiritual practices, again over 25+ years.

UN : Yawn.

The Buddhas : And now you’ve landed with Buddhism.

UN : Lucky me.

The Buddhas : You’ve got power. You can pull. Also, you are able to connect directly.

UN : Do I still have to do all the reading?

The Buddhas : Study has the stamp of authenticity.

UN : You’re saying that during direct connection, there might be an element of doubt…

The Buddhas : …yes, sometimes, you mightn’t realise when your mind is playing tricks on you.

UN : I’ll give you that. Study is fine, but I’d like to go at my own speed.

The Buddhas : You’re letting it come to you, aren’t you, in a pre-digested fashion?

UN : Bottomline is, that I’m assimilating. In a different manner, but learning nevertheless.

The Buddhas : Also, you’ve always been unorthodox, so we’re not surprised.

UN : Let’s plane out the complacency angle, can we?

The Buddhas : Lingering and not doing Gongyo and Daimoku, what is that?

UN : Fear of overdoing.

The Buddhas : You fear that even this might go away, like your other spiritual practices?

UN : Yes. I want this to stay. So, not overplaying the card. Going with the flow.

The Buddhas : Hmmm, you can go all out but aren’t, we see.

UN : As of now I’m just happy taking whatever time windows open up.

The Buddhas : And you’re not pushing to create extra windows.

UN : Exactly. I know my game, and I know my game’s pitfalls.

The Buddhas : So you’re steering clear of the pitfalls.

UN : Yes.

The Buddhas : Ok.

I Enjoy Being a Nobody

The Buddhas : Are you sure about this one?

UN : Why? You think otherwise?

The Buddhas : You have that streak in you. The one wanting fame, sometimes, indirectly, maybe.

UN : Hmmm. Yes, sometimes there are pangs.

The Buddhas : But mostly, better sense prevails.

UN : I’m glad you see that.

The Buddhas : Let’s harp a bit on this hidden craving for fame.

UN : I’m not craving for fame. I enjoy being a nobody.

The Buddhas : Ok, lets put this another way.

UN : Go ahead.

The Buddhas : You are noticed. Your work is noticed. Eventually, you get acclaim in what you do.

UN : Is that a bad thing?

The Buddhas : We’re not finished. This leads you to subconsciously crave for more. It’s a natural tendency.

UN : I watch out for this tendency.

The Buddhas : Yes, but sometimes it’s there and you don’t know it.

UN : Continue.

The Buddhas : You only get to know after then committing an action that is driven by a latent craving for recognition.

UN : Hmmm. True. You’ll need to concede, though, that once I realize such an action has been committed, I immediately correct myself.

The Buddhas : Ya, you correct your action then and suppress the pang for recognition.

UN : You don’t like the suppression bit, is it?

The Buddhas : It’ll just explode that way.

UN : I see. You’re trying to say that upon explosive emergence, then, things will be uncontrollable.

The Buddhas : Better is to let it come out, recognize it, and then, let it move on.

UN : Without acting on it, you’re saying, right?

The Buddhas : Yeah. Just don’t act on it. Have that much self-control.

UN : So what it’s boiling down to is this : I need to recognize fame-related thought processes as they emerge…

The Buddhas : …and then let them pass, without acting on them or reacting to them.

UN : That’s it, is it?

The Buddhas : Sounds simple, doesn’t it?

UN : I’m sure you’re going to say otherwise.

The Buddhas : Well, let’s see you do it first.

What is the Gohonzon? (a mental conversation)

UN : What is the Gohonzon?

The Buddhas : It’s a matrix.

UN : What kind of a matrix?

The Buddhas : Where each chanting soul, each chanting soul’s each chant, is connected.

UN : How is this connection made?

The Buddhas : Through the principle of resonance.

UN : So each one’s chant has similar vibrational frequency, and all such vibrations intermingle and start swinging together?

The Buddhas : That’s not all. During the intermingling and swinging together, there’s huge give and take.

UN : Meaning?

The Buddhas : Surplusses nullify deficits in a flash. You’d be surprised at the level of surplus in this matrix.

UN : Where is the surplus coming from?

The Buddhas : Amongst those connected are also souls with mountains of good Karma. They give willingly of it without expecting return. Good Karma keeps flowing towards them because of their exemplary existence, so they know they’ll never be in deficit. Thus they keep giving and giving.

UN : So anyone connecting to the Gohonzon is sure to receive?

The Buddhas : As sure as there’s a sky above your head.

UN : Currently, there’s no place for a Gohonzon in my house, owing to my environment and circumstances.

The Buddhas : What do you need one for? It’s already in your mind, and now also in your heart. Just connect to it through sheer vibration. If and when your environment and circumstances change, even a physical Gohonzon will manifest. However, currently, just keep doing what you are doing.

UN : Thanks 🙂 .

The Buddhas : Bye.

Including Chandra

Chandra spoke to me yesterday.

It was during the last three minutes of my chanting session.

I could hear him. He said something like “include me too” or “pray for me too”.

I chanted those last three minutes for him.

His eyes started to glow.

Chandra was a saint, perhaps even a monk, and highly spiritually advanced. He spent multiple hours, sometimes nights, in deep meditation.

Chandra had supernatural powers. He could see and hear in paranormal frequencies. He used his powers to do maximum good.

I met him last in 2012. He was wearing a saffron cloth and had taken over multiple spiritual duties.

Chandra was my friend. I never called him Chandra to his face. Then, he was always Dr. Chandra. He was a doctor in natural and homeopathic medicine, I believe.

Perhaps he was lonely and missing his friend. I had become a friend to him, during our regular association between 1997 and 2002, and then sporadic meetings between 2002 and 2012.

The spiritual line is a lonely one.

Marriage made me hit a different trajectory. It was nothing less than marriage that took me away from the spiritual magnetism that emanated from Chandra.

I felt for Chandra. I felt his loneliness.

I chanted for Chandra.

A Push in the Right Direction

The Buddhas : We want to discuss those 10 minutes of your Daimoku session.

UN : Those 10 minutes when I was chanting for the success of the Buddhist movement towards world peace, right?

The Buddhas : Yes. The imagery was quite original, dude.
 
UN : I’m me. Do you think imagining multiple reins in one’s mouth and carrying their weight forward with the sheer force of the chant is a bit bizarre?

The Buddhas : It’s different. We don’t get that too much. What were these reins supposed to be connected to?

UN : Multiple facets of the kosen rufu movement.

The Buddhas : And how much forward did you push the movement in those ten minutes, do you think?

UN : A femtometer, perhaps. A femtometer would be good. I’ll take it.

The Buddhas : And what made you do this?

UN : I could hear you. You were asking when I was going to chant for you.

The Buddhas : Yeah, you were so busy chanting for your family that we thought you might forget us. 

UN : Well, you asked, and I did.

The Buddhas : And again you didn’t chant for yourself.

UN : But I did. Chanting for others causes vacuum in one’s own system because of energy outflow towards others. This vacuum attracts positive energy from the Universe. It’s win-win.

The Buddhas : That’s indirect. 

UN : In between the mind would wander to my own issues. That’s natural. These then too got registered with the chant.

The Buddhas : We see.